This is one of my more accomplished demos. In fact, with a re-recorded vocal and some slight re-mixing, I feel like it could be good enough for an album.
Lyrically, there's a lot here to go into. But long story short, this song is based on a brief relationship I had that was very confusing and an all around bad fit in every way. I wrote a handful of songs about this girl (here's one and here's one), because there was just so many things wrong with us together, and so many different angles to approach it from. This song is probably the most direct summary of the whole thing.
Musically, I just love this demo. The back up music changes constantly. Reverb-y acoustic twiddling, synth oboes and woodwinds, organs, lots of cool vocal FX. It's a very old demo, but it feels like I knew exactly what I was doing. Also musically, I like the song. It's got a strange structure, no chorus but lots of bridges. I like the relaxed tempo and rhythm.
Here are the lyrics!
I can't say what you mean to me
Every day it's changing
I see you on my TV
First I scream and then breathe
A sigh of relief
For I am nowhere near you
Then I'm completely surrounded
There's a face in my school
It looks just like you
Faces move and blur into the wall
But this one stays still
Enough to make out
With that sad mouth
And dazed I stroll down
SMACK into a wall now
Call me, but don't
Cause I really don't
Want to know what you're up to
I hope that it's
Much better
Than what I picture
You're sad
That's too bad cause I'm uncomfortable with that
I don't know what to do with that
I can't say what you mean to me
Every day it's changing
You were pretty mean to me
But you still were pretty
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-Jordan
